When I cry with no words

Taking you out in my heart, in a tragedy that's hard to hold back
I'm a girl who wasn't able to groan even once
Forget me easily.. Don't feel sorry..
I've suppressed the words I love you

For your happiness I'm throwing away..
Don't make my heart become empty..

Even if I go without any words, even if you see my pain
Pass by me as if you didn't see anything
Don't let your heart start to shake
The tears of a bad girl.. even if it blocks you
One step, two step.. just like that, walk further..

Hiding and watching you, longing for you
I'm a girl who can't even greet you once
Wishing you to have a good love.. telling you not to think of me again..
I've tied up my chilling heart again..

Wishing you to live smiling, I throw away
Don't let my heart become empty..

In my heart, at the end of my heart.. in my thoughts, at the end of my thoughts
I swallow back my tears and send you away..
A love stained in the light of tears, a glow starts to form

I'll always tell you, I'll give you all my heart
About the time I start to become burried in you
The love of a bad girl starts to long for you
One step, two step, following like that
I've come searching for the person I've been longing for.. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA~

SELAMAT hari jadi mama yg ke 48 thn pada 15th of March 2011 aritu.. muda lg taw ! haha umur mcmni ada anak umur 22 thn..sdgkn ptot ada ank umur 24 thn da..bermenantu da.. haha belum lg okay ! papa i x suke anak2 die kawen awl.. okay semoga mama :

a) panjang umur.. so that kak long leh jaga mama bila mama da tua nanti yup !

b) murah rezeki.. biar mama ada byk2 duit kite g travel sama2 yep

c) maintain berat badan.. mama xyah kurus2 da..da chantek da badan mama ni.. da la tinggi, putih okay la tuh =)

d) tak marah2.. haha relax mama..jgn marah2 kang cpt tua. biasala kalo xdgr mama marah lain plak jdnye

e) sabar.. tempuh segala ujian Allah.. bak kata papa sikit je masa lg k.

f) sihat sejahtera.. kak long owes doakan kesihatan mama supaya x kne mgrain lg..

g) gembira selalu !!!... bila mama happy kak long lg bahagia..

SECRET recipes's cake sponsored by kawan2 papa..thnx uncle Adam N uncle Eddie.. n happy birthday to anak Uncle Eddie.. Herry.. comel sgt2 budak tuh.. haha.. okay now tgk pic bawah ni jap !

SEMPAT  la jugak balik celeb besday mama.. yg pasti cuti kali ni best ! haha sbb owes makan dan makan ! thts y muke i chubby dan opps my baju kebaya pon da sendat ! haha..so abes la !

*selamat hari jadi mama sayangs !

Hukum Karma

What’s goes around comes around what’s goes up must come down

The familiar words.. karma.. one of my frens are not belief in karma.. haha maybe he doesn’t know what’s the meaning.. but to me i’m believe on it.. One of my friends also describe it as hikmah.. i’m confuse about hikmah and karma.. to me is different..

Yes ! i acknowledge that i’m scared with karma’s rules.. It’s happens around us.. every moment and every seconds.. too many example, too many situation we can describe as karma.. Once you make something good insyaallah u’ll accept something good too but once you make something bad u will receive the bad things too.. 

Mama said that ‘sekarang Allah bayar cash je..’

The ways we talk, we gossip, we delivery what we want to deliver also can describe as karma.. u said that girl is ugly.. maybe u or your some other family members is ugly.. u show off your things to all the people.. just wait  for 3 4 months the karma will meet u as the other people will show off to you too..

We can avoid from karma tragedy.. just by thinking before u do what u want to do.. In case, if you  forgot about what u have done just remind it back so that u r not repeat the same things..

Actually I want to share several cases with readers..

First case is.. about my friend.. She so nice to me and I’m very comfortable to friend with her.. She’s so brave and  strict.. her princip is do not love any guys who did not have any steady job.. She always advice me that appreciate my own life, do not waste my life with the bodoh’s guys and find the person who has a lot of money so that can give us prosperity.. But now.. she is in love with the guys who has no job either.. I never think that she will get that type of mamat but it’s true ! it’s reality.. She told us that she hates who control her life but she are very comfort with that guy which is control her life right now.. see.. That’s karma.. even we just tell and talk but it will become a real situation.. I’m not just talking about her  but in this case happened by my several friends too.. I just want to share with readers not because of i want embrrasse my friends but I want the readers take it as experience so that do not repeat my friends’s mistakes..

Second cases...  about father and sons.. In U.S.. his father works as army.. he left his sons at his hometown.. his sons stay wif his mother in law.. sakit pening sume this father never amk taw lgsg ! cett.. n after 45 plus2 year.. one of his son never amk taw psl his father's condition ! see !! his father keep praying for his this son for going back to meet him.. everyday keep missing his son ! seriously hurm mcm sedih kn... but dunno.. i dont know who should i blame.. karma or his son because tht's his responsible to take care of his father ! own father ! n i believe someday his own son also will do the same things ! seriously ! 

Hurm, enough for 2 cases.. The example for us to learn about karma ! so jadikan tauladan yep~

* seriously takut takdir yg akan dtg ! takut lupe diri pabila berada di ats.. takut jadi manusia yg bongkak dan sombong ! insyaallah, kesemua sifat ini akan ku jauhinya~

Should declare as bestfriend ?

It's hard to differentiate between bestfriend and just only a friend.

Scene 1 :


tang mulot ckp syaz u r my bestfren..mintk tlg ckp busy ! tp ngn kwn lain bole huhahuha..cett ! tuh nk declare bestfren lg ke eh ?


Scene 2 :


masa sng huhahuha gosip sne sini..gelak2 wat dosa bile tarik muke peh lgsg xberckp..jaje cerita die je betul..nk declare bestfren jgk ke eh?


Scene 3 :


bila susah oh syaz help me..listen to my prob..bile bahagia.. 1 msg pon x jengah kt my baby sony.. nk declare bestfren jgk ke?


Scene 4 :


tgh sng bile kite cr mintk bntuan alasan kate busy, xde kdt la pe la.. oh okay nk declare bestfren jgk ke?


Scene 5 :


pnt bg nsht ni sbb die kecewa..tp bila kite nk bcerita die wt xtaw..oh declare bestfren jgk ke ni?


Scene 6 :


oh syaz jom hang la pela..alih2 date tuh kuar ngn kwn lain..mulot ckp syaz the bestfren..nk declare bestfren ke eh?


Scene 7 :


kite mintk nsht tlg kite supaya pmikiran kite bole pikir.tp die hentam kite kaw2 pnye..die ckp kite kwn baik die.declare bestfren jgk ke eh?


Scene 8 :


Masa dulu kawan rapat tak nk berenggang tp bila da bhagia oh syaz * da mcm xknl kite dulu kwn rapat dia plak.. plus hentam n malukn kite kaw2.. still nk declare bestfren lg ke eh ?




-Sume declare kite as their bestfriend tp tak boleh percaya sbb cakap pkai mulot tp x buat pon.. so still nk declare bestfriend lg ke ?


- Nak taw bestfriend mcmane ?

watch their movie n you will know about bestfriend~

*for those who has a bestfriend~

Mereka selalu berpesan :

papa saya smart !!

papa selalu cakap :


'kalau papa campak kau dekat sabah sarawak ke mana ke papa yakin kau mesti boleh hidup sorg2..'


papa selalu cakap :


'kak long ni berani.. semua hantu takut dengan dia..' 


papa selalu cakap :


'hidup ni macam main bola dekat ats padang.. bila kita jaringkn goal semua org sanjung kita, puji kita.. tapi bila kalah.. semua nak maki kita. mcm hidup kita skg..'


papa selalu cakap :


'belajar rajin2.. nanti boleh dapat kerja gaji tinggi..'


papa selalu cakap :


'kalau kau tak dapat sesuatu..mula la merajuk..duduk bilik diam2..'


papa selalu cakap :


'kenapa degil sgt ni? cuba lah dgr cakap mak bapak kau ni..'

papa selalu cakap :


'tolong jangan bercinta.. papa tak suka..abeskan belajar, dapat kerja baru bole !'

mama saya chantek~

mama selalu cakap :


'belajar rajin2.. doa byk2 sbb Allah selalu dgr doa kita..kn Allah cakap mintak je ape2 kt DIA.. insyaallah dimakbulkan..'


mama selalu cakap :


'biar org buat kita..kita diam..nnt esok lusa dia akan rasa serba salah dgn kita..'


mama selalu cakap :


'mama selalu doakan kak long.. semua anak2 mama, mama doakan../


mama selalu cakap :


'cubalah bangun awal sikit.. belajar masak..awak tuh umur da 22..'


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Dok sorg2 dlm bilik..br la nk teringt parents cakap ape dgn kita.. byk bnda lg dorg pesan kn.. ni je yg termampu terlintas di fikiran.. hahaha..


*yep, saya budak nakal, degil, pemalas !! opps !! =)

Because I'm a girl

KISS - Because I'm a Girl

Dalam video ni kn..

ada lg x lelaki mcmni kt dunia ni ?

Okay la..

paling cikai pon dlm Malaysia..

ada lg x ?

Seriously,

memang TAK ADE !

mana ada manusia perfect..

nk lelaki perfect mg x ah !

PERFECT..

tuh kita yg akan saling lengkap melengkapi

dgn pasangan kite nnt..

betul..

so karakter lelaki dlm video ni

mg xde dlm dunia..

hehe =)

tp first time tgk video nih..

OMG !!

sedih, terharu, pehh

xtaw nk describe mcmne da..

*Don't judge a book by its cover.. Even muke x hensem tp karakter mg mantap.. y x lelaki tuh jadi milik kite.. He deserves for the person he loves !

cerita minggu lepas !

Assalammualaikum dan Salam Sejahtera~

hey readers !

hows ur life?

my life getting better, horrible, extreme !! haha~

                                              tired la because of the job, assignment.. LETIH !!

lucky it's because of last sem..

if x..jgn harap nk rajen la, hntr asgnment la, dtg kelas mg harapan la

4th of MArch 2011

I balik negeri sembilan... hehe..jumpa semua org..my beloved mama, dila, hakim, kak ngah, nenek, mak long, mak teh, pakndak, mak ndah, acu, along , angah, k.wani, mak cik, abe piza, firdaus, ayoi, yana, busu.. hah sume nama i sebut ! mereka the best ! smp kmpg pukul 7ptg..dr s.a kol 4.30..naik lamboghini mak teh.. pkai level aircond 1 jee peh cm pkai 4 ! haha sejuk yg hamat ! mlm tuh pulak main saidina dgn pak ndak, angah, yana, dila..peh cam haram ! hahhaa pak ndak muflis ! hahaha.. yana kne buli kaw2 pnyer..kesian gilerh..seis palg kelaka smp angah gelak guling2.. xtaw la nk describe mcmne our moments..rasanye our fam mg bestt !! thumbs up !!! dgn kes along ngn dila la.. mcm2 hal haha.. paling sedih tgk umah masuk air.. kesian giler tgk mereka2 kemas umah.. nseb angah, k.wani, me, kak ngah tlg mereka2 kemas.. huh..*dpt rasa mcmne mereka2 buat kje bila air masuk dlm umh.. penat !! oh god.. pg2 da kne bangun wt kje dapur.. buktinya..i tunjuk yep~

oh see.. i kupas bawang taw =) * angah mbebel ! haha~

hah bersantai..~

FROM uitm naik bus turun bus.. suddenly br teringt lesen da mati..cilakak laa.. kne la g post ofis ipoh..besar n bersih okay ! baik org2 perak.. org india..manners dorg not bad.. okay back to the lesen..my lesen rm32 taw x !! ishkk mhl haha.. xpe da renew for a year.. then naik bus balik k.l 12.30..smp 3.30..giler lpar thp gaban.. then balik s.a amk mama terus balik kmpg naik lamboghini hehe =).. meh2 want to show u post office ipoh.. hehe =)

besar kn ? haha~

hahaha my lesen ! giler buruk..ahh benci !! lala~

MASA dekat kmpg..nk rest.. aman kt otak..penat study okay ! but something came up ! mr R appear again! damn !! ishkkk seis myirap je.. paksa nk jmp la pe la.. keep calling..da org x pick xpyh la nk call byk kali.. lg2 masa ngn angah..seis nk je soh angah angkt n sound jgn kacau i lg ! bullsh** ! then paksa2 pulak la bls msg die.. hurghhh !! xtenang betol la hidup !..

FINALLY, da xthn sgt mg kne sound la kn.. still kacau lg mg xkn teragak2 bgtaw papa ask papa call u terus bgtaw jgn kacau i lg ! plz laa.. bkn nk berlagak da bole hidup sendiri tp this is my future..da la last sem ! now tgh face big prob wif frens n stdy..dlm dilemma for dgree.. xfhm2.. but just now die berani msg balik tny soalan maths !! FO !! saje je..sdgkn die tahu nk wt soalan tuh ! xfhm la manusia mcm u mr R !!

THIS pic for someone is not deserve to involve in LOVE~

LOVE destroys future !!

yeah, sometymes we need to sacrifice..

i'm learn somethng about LOVE in my past !

because of love..

a. my spm hncr..

b. extend 1 sem at uitm pilah

c. my pointer fall off n he left me !

seriously, it's hurts ! alone independents..

now, i'm realize tht LOVE is not suitable during stdy..

it can effects ur stdy, emotion, frens n fam relationshp !

oh thnx god.. alhamdulillah..

Allah still loves me n save me from hell in LOVE !

LOVE just stop by in our life for a moment 

then, left us without say any words !

LOVE is harsh..

sometimes gives us happiness

sometimes gives us sadness..

please ! im begging u sygss...

do not ever involve in LOVE~

* just love the person who loves me !!